Well its the same old saying... it will get better in time, your better off blah blah blah but at the moment I just want him to give me a cuddle and tell me everything will be ok. And he's not around, doesnt want to give me the cuddle and im now suspecting didnt want to for a while...But i just cant stop missing him and it's the little things i miss (cause he didnt really help with any of the big things lets be honest!). I know times a healer but jeezy peeps i wish it would hurry up a bit!
So I have to make a big decision...to sell the car or not?? I have worked out a way of keeping it but it reminds me of us and maybe it's better that i just change everything to get the clean start i need?? I have a cracking deal for a new citroen ds3 and im not going to lie i've wanted one for a while but I just cant seem to let go of the kuga argh!!
I've also stood on the scales for the first time since we spilt up - oh my freaking god! (and not in a good way!!) So im off to the gym tonight and will be cutting out all the crap. I have about 4 months to sort myself out before bridesmaid duties and I have a lovely dress i want to wear to Nyc's henny. It's a monsoon size 16 and I will be in it! (I have a looooog way to go)
so instead of mopping around (which i want to do) im going to do my moping at the gym and a water bottle is going to be my new best friend (yeah! not). Need to sort myself out!!!!
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