I ended up watching Eat, Pray, Love last night and while i like the 'idea' of the book and travelling for a year to find the person inside the ending is such a let down..she goes off with a man. The very thing she ran away from in the beginning.

It also led me to thinking most of last night about my part in all my relationships and how I very much feel the victim just now (yes even 3 months on) but at the same time I have to remember that i didnt like my life in coupledom....I didnt like having to come home every night straight after work, sort endless washing piles, think of dinner and what would need to be done for the two of us for the next day. Also the feeling that in order to spend time together we had to sit and watch a program in front of the tv. I had turned into everything that i didnt want to be and while I spoke to my then partner about it all and how i was feeling he just thought i was having a hissy fit about the housework again (although did very little to help).

So Ive got a bit of prospective...we werent right and ultimately we didnt fit when trying to work togther as a team.

I also suspect I am better on my own and while I would like to share my life with someone I also crave the independence of living alone. Is this a result of modern day living or just my indepence shining through?

So in the meantime while Im trying to get over my past relationship and in no way ready for the next I am going to plan my next adventure...

i suspect learning italian and planning a summer vacation there next year will be my next adventure, it's been stirring about for years and there seems no better time than the present!

or am i just reliving Eat Pray Love??